Pastoring

Just Like Jesus

Please note that these are not actual prisoners. They are my daughters at Silver Dollar City.

Lately, I’ve kinda felt like Jesus.

Not Jesus when he was kind-hearted and compassionate–blessing the children and touching the lepers.

Not Jesus when he was in the miracle groove–oozing healing power onto everyone who touched him or turning a few iffy fish into the best potluck meal ever.

Not Jesus when he was impressing (and intimidating) people with his deep, godly thoughts–preaching the Sermon on the Mount, telling funny yet provocative parables.

No, I kinda feel like Jesus when he insulted the Canaanite woman. (Matthew 15:21-28)

You remember the story? She stops him in the street to ask him to heal her daughter. He says, “I was sent only to the lost sheep of the house of Israel. . . . It is not right to take the children’s food and feed it to the dogs.”

He doesn’t want to be bothered by this woman. He doesn’t feel like dealing with a Canaanite. He wants to do his ministry the way he has envisioned it–with people who are like him, with people he likes.

Oh, how Christ-like I am. I put off answering that email from a stranger who is clearly needy and confused. I let the letter from the man in jail sit on my desk for days before I even read it. I hesitate to pick up the phone and call the pastor of the conservative church.

“I’ve come only to the lost liberal sheep of Lawrence, Kansas.”

The recent political season and the continuing debates within our conference and denomination only make things worse. The more hateful and divisive and exhausting the public rhetoric becomes, the more I want to hunker down with MY people. Let others worry about the Canaanites, the mentally ill, the prisoners . . . the conservatives.

But the woman, of course, did not take “go away” for an answer. “Yes, Lord,” she says, “but even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their master’s table.”

Her extension of Jesus’ metaphor exposes it for the lie that it is. This woman is not a dog, she is a human being who is suffering deeply. And so Jesus, humbled, consents and heals her daughter.

And the people reaching out to Christ through me are not “crazy” or “prisoners” or “conservatives.” They are not the labels I try to put on them so that I can dismiss them and move on to my real ministry. These people, like me and like those in my congregation, are children of God; suffering and searching children of God.

So my prayer is that I will be less like Jesus at the beginning of his encounter with the woman and more like him at the end. My prayer is that my frustration and exhaustion and fear will not prevent me from showing compassion to those around me. My prayer is that my vision of the ministry to which God has called me will not prevent me from doing the actual ministry to which God has called me.

And I pray the same for you, as we are all called to reach out with the love of Christ in this hurting world. Amen.

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Money, the Church, and those Dang Brass Plaques

A few weeks ago I was a guest in a church. A church of kind-hearted, hospitable people, I’m sure. At some point, as is to be expected, my tiny bladder and I needed to use the bathroom. I did not use the main bathroom with stalls and fake flowers and smelly lotion. I used the little bathroom off of the kitchen. The toilet in a closet.

And right there, gleaming in gold against the shining white top of the porcelain toilet tank, was a brass sign. You’ve seen these little plaques in churches before: “In memory of Mary Jane Schilermacher.”*

I couldn’t help but wonder how old Mary Jane feels about all of her Christian brothers and sisters (and let’s be honest here, especially the brothers who will be facing the toilet as they pee) thinking of her each time they look at this toilet.

A few months ago I was a guest at another church. A church of Jesus-loving, justice-living people. And I noticed a nice sign in front of the building. The kind of sign that sits heavily on the ground. The kind with a clear cover that you can unlock and change the big black letters inside: “Honk if you love Jesus.”** Below the panel with the big black letters was a little brass plaque: “In memory of Vernon P. Buttlebitter.”***

I couldn’t help but wonder what passers by thought of this plaque. Maybe Mr. Buttlebitter was an exemplary human being and his name on the sign encouraged people to attend this church. But I never met the deceased Mr. Buttlebitter, and my thoughts were more along the lines of, “Why can’t people just give money for a sign and leave off the distracting plaque?”.

Our small and growing congregation is in the midst of discernment about how to access more space for Christian formation and worship. These discussions are reminding me how emotional we can get about money. How much fear it can cause. How much anxiety. How much pride and shame and guilt.

Some people have money, and they don’t want to give it. Other people don’t have money, and they want to give it. Which means that basically everyone is uncomfortable talking about it.

But money is just money. We need a certain amount of it to live in our culture. We need it to feed people and clothe people and provide medical care. We need it to buy or rent spaces for education and worship. We need it to pay the water bill and the electricity bill and the babysitter.

Yes. We need money. But if we are going to go around slapping plaques on everything in and around the church building that represents the contributions of faithful and generous people, we’ll need to substantially increase our plaque budget.

We’ll need plaques on the rosebushes in honor of all the gardeners who plant, water, and weed. Plaques on the clean floors, for the volunteer who cleans them every week. Plaques on the pulpit for everyone who reads scripture and preaches the word. Plaques on my children’s foreheads in honor of every Sunday School teacher they’ve ever had, everyone in the church who has taken them out for ice cream or sat down for a heart to heart.

We could litter our church buildings with plaques. Or we could just go faithfully about our business of being the body of Christ. Each contributing what we can, knowing that, by God’s grace, it is enough.

 

*This is not the real name on the toilet plaque.
**This is not really what the sign said.
***This is not the real name on the sign plaque, either. It’s not that I’m trying to protect anonymity, I just can’t remember this stuff.

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On Being a Woman Pastor

I am grateful to Rachel Held Evans for taking up the topic of egalitarianism this week and instigating (inciting?) a synchroblog on various aspects of gender equality within a Christian context. I encourage you to go to Rachel’s blog and check out #mutuality2012 on twitter. Good stuff.

As you might imagine, some of the stories shared are heartbreaking. There is a lot of Kingdom work to be done before the church mirrors the reality of Galatians 3:28: “There is neither Jew nor Greek, slave nor free, male nor female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus.”

The good news, however, is that there are places of safety and equality and grace within the church. That it is possible for a girl to grow up and become a pastor without once thinking she can’t or shouldn’t use her gifts for the church.

I know that it is possible, because that is my story. I grew up in American Baptist churches in Kansas. I went to a United Methodist college in Virginia. I have degrees from two American Baptist seminaries (in Pennsylvania and Kansas), and I now serve as a Mennonite pastor in Kansas. (Yes indeed, Kansas!)

I always believed that pastoral ministry was a career option–even during my phase of wanting to be anything BUT a pastor. (A phase I think all pastor’s kids go through, God help us.)

I was encouraged every step of the way on my spiritual journey and my academic pursuits. I was allowed to take every class I wanted to take in seminary–even the preaching classes.

I have never had a church refuse to consider me for a position or allow me in the pulpit because of my gender. They don’t even complain when they have to bring out the little step for me to stand on so I can see over the pulpit.

If people have said that I, as a woman, have no business leading a congregation, they have said it behind my back. (Or possibly I’ve just blocked it out of my memory.)

My entire congregation lives in a happy bubble where women in ministry is a non-issue. Seriously. I once asked our worship committee if a friend of mine from preaching class could guest preach at our church. My friend needed to preach to a congregation for our class, and her church wouldn’t let her preach. It took forever for me to get them to understand that her home church would not let her in the pulpit because she is a woman. I kept telling them, but they just had these quizzical looks on their faces. These lovely people that I pastor.

Just last month I attended the Festival of Homiletics. Nearly every time there was a break, there was a line at the women’s bathroom.  As I waited in line I thought, “We’re at a preaching conference. And there is a line at the women’s bathroom. Praise God!”

I don’t write a lot about women in ministry, because that is not a battle I have to fight. I often take my acceptance as a pastor for granted. But I do realize that my ability to simply serve God and the church without having to stop and justify myself every five minutes is a great gift. A gift provided through the work of the Holy Spirit and the hard, stubborn work of many men and women who have gone before me–and are continuing on!

As we all know, when you are given a gift, the proper response is to write a thank you note.

So “thank you” to those men and women who continue to articulate the biblical call for equal status for and full recognition of the gifts of women within the Christian church and family. I know there is still a great deal of work to be done in this area, and I’m grateful to those who do it.

“Thank you” to the women and men whose theological work, spiritual work, relational work, and personal sacrifices have created safe and nurturing spaces within the Christian church for women to fully serve God.

“Thank you” to all women who followed the call to ministry despite discouragement and outright hostility from those within the church and seminary. My early mentor, our American Baptist regional minister, Barbara Eldred. My first Mennonite Conference Minister, Dorothy Nickle Friesen. My mom, pastor extraordinaire. My friend Susan, who was the only female student at a southern episcopalian seminary (a while back). The incredible scholar, Molly Marshall, now the first female president of a Baptist seminary. Thank you to all of the women who were told they couldn’t and shouldn’t and did it anyway.

“Thank you” to all of the men who emptied themselves of male privilege to stand beside their female colleagues. To Mike Graves and David May who were forced out of their teaching positions at a Southern Baptist seminary for teaching that women could be pastors. To Linford King, a Mennonite bishop who ordained women even though his conference said he couldn’t. To my husband who thought it would be fun to take the “pastors’ wives” classes at a nearby conservative seminary. (You know, “Ministering Wife” and “Leading Bible Studies.”) To all of the male pastors who treat their female colleagues as equals and all of the male parishoners who treat their female pastors as pastors.

And you–if you have ever supported a woman in ministry, thank you.

Here’s hoping ever more girls will have “pastor” on their list of things they want to be when they grow up–next to doctor and baker and paleontologist and ballerina.

Here’s hoping that ever more worship committees–and search committees–will be stunned into confusion at the thought of anyone having a problem with a woman in the pulpit.

And here’s hoping (maybe this is a bit of a selfish hope) that the pulpit manufacturers will start building those things a little bit shorter.

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Super Spectacular Sabbatical: Day 1

Today is my first official day of sabbatical! I have four months to read and pray and write, to rejuvenate and refresh, to deepen my pastoral identity and hone my pastoral skills. And it all starts today!

According to “The Plan,” I was supposed to be on retreat today and tomorrow. Then I looked at “The Calendar” and realized that I was gone two weekends ago and will be gone two weekends from now. I figured that it really isn’t fair to stick my husband with a single parenting gig too terribly often in the name of my personal spiritual enlightenment.

So “the NEW plan” was a daylong retreat—maybe hang out at the wetlands or a friend’s beautiful garden. Time for prayer, contemplation, prioritizing, dreaming, maybe even a nap!

Then came the predictions of rain. And the loose ends that still needed to be dealt with for church. And the project that had to be done by today. And the fact that I’ve been so busy getting ready for “The Sabbatical” that I haven’t even been to “The Grocery Store” this week. Which is a near-disaster in a house with two teenagers.

So here I am, living out my actual, real-life first day of sabbatical. Which looks nothing like the “The Plan” or “the New plan.” It’s probably for the best that reality is joining me right away on this sabbatical adventure. I’d hate to get too far down the path without it.

My actual, real-life first day of sabbatical has so far included:

  • a trip to the copy store
  • working on a project while listening to a This American Life episode about the Ten Commandments
  • about half an hour in my prayer corner reading lovely notes from people in my congregation and praying that God does something with me over these next four months (dangerous, I know)
  • eating lunch while reading my current mystery novel (which is about a crime solving Episcopal priest, so that’s pretty spiritual)
  • and soon a major trip to the grocery store
  • plus a little side project of dying my hair red because I LOVE red hair and I’m always worried that if I dye my hair everyone at church will be thinking more about my hair color than the words I’m speaking—and now it doesn’t matter! (This stuff will wash out long before August.)

Plus, I’m really looking forward to having a weekend. An actual weekend! As in no work to do on Saturday or Sunday so I can stay up late tonight and sleep in tomorrow morning.. (The fact that I will likely be in bed by 11 p.m. and up before 7 a.m. is not the point. Not the point at all.)

So far this is a good day. A gift of a day. Even if it has not gone according to “The Plan.”

I’m trying to let this reality sink in: my sabbatical consists of many, many days. I am excited and grateful and hopeful!

One project I will begin soon is getting this blog in shape. Indexing sermons and worship pieces. Finding some sort of rhythm that seems to be missing right now. (I almost wrote “finding focus,” but I’m really trying to honor this whole reality thing. This blog will never be focused. Unless I split it up into different blogs, which just seems like way too much work.) Writing about the books I’m reading, the Festival of Homiletics, and whatever else pops up of interest in the next four months. (Like maybe the fact that my ministerial credentials will be voted on by the entire delegate body at our annual Conference assembly in July. Oh yes, fun times ahead.)

Suggestions about the blog are welcome. Tips on living into a faithful sabbatical are welcome.

Peace of Christ to each of you.

 

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Randomness

Last week I took a couple of sick days off of work. This may sound like sad news, but I was actually quite thrilled. Because in my five years of being a pastor, I’ve never been able to take an actual sick day. Sure, I’ve been sick. And my kids have been sick (though thankfully, not too often). And I may have even canceled a meeting or two. But to actually work fewer hours in a week because of illness . . . it just never happened.

Until last week. And while I’m not glad I was sick, I am thrilled about being able to take sick days . . . thanks to our newly-hired administrative assistant, LaVonne!

I have had lots of great volunteer office help in the past, and I do not intend to diminish their volunteer work in any way. Still, there is something different, something wonderful, about having office staff. Even part-time.

Fortunately for all of us, LaVonne is a much more organized person than I am. I have a very efficient filing system for various paper materials that come into the office: I put everything in a pile, and then once every couple of years or so I put it all in the recycling because it’s all outdated.

Apparently LaVonne has a different system in mind, because she is going through these strategic piles. Our recycling box is full, to be sure. And I gather she is putting some things in file folders–which she is labeling. (You can tell this woman is a professional!) And then there are some things I just have to go through myself. She piles them in the middle of my desk. We’ve begun referring to these papers as “randomness.”

“I put some more randomness on your desk,” she’ll say.

Lot’s of the randomness papers are old to-do lists, which are quite fun to look through. And some of this randomness is definitely more random than others.

Here is my absolute favorite so far. It’s an 8 1/2 by 5 1/2 sheet of white paper with my hand-written notes on it.

One side reads, in part:
Lisa w/ budget blinds
Ps 40:79
p 319-wax
lust, laughter, loyalty

The other side reads, in part:
E-News, Order, Announcements
Ocean Mist
shovels
chain saw
axes
weed whacker
Send reviews
Donations
return church books

Now I do not know what all of this randomness refers to.  I don’t remember what I was reviewing; I don’t know if “Ocean Mist” is a color or a fragrance or possibly a computer template; I have no idea what “wax” has to do with anything.  But apparently during the time I was writing on this particular piece of paper I was making arrangements about blinds, studying the scriptures, preparing for pre-marital counseling (? at least I hope “lust” was apropos of something), getting ready for a church work day, and taking care of basic office administration tasks.

Sometimes I feel like I am pulled in too many directions. I want more time to be still and to focus. And I think that, at some point, I will enter a stage of my life that will be a little more focused, a little less scattered.

But I also think the truth of the matter is that I enjoy the randomness. This little piece of paper with squiggles and scratches and disconnected notes makes me smile. And when I think that it represents what I get to do for my vocation–it makes me smile even more.

Despite LaVonne’s best efforts, I’m sure there will always be at least one pile of randomness in the church office. And I may just keep this paper in it indefinitely. When I get tired or frustrated or discouraged about my work as pastor, I can pull out this paper and say a little prayer: Thank you, God, that whatever challenges I may face, at least my job is not boring. Amen.

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Adult Spiritual Formation?

I’m not preaching this  Sunday morning. I had no committee meetings this week. No crises. Well, not major, time-consuming crises. And so, during this anomalous week of few pressing tasks, I had time to think. (Yes, Peace Mennonite folks should be getting worried right about now.)

I’ve primarily been thinking about (and googling) adult spiritual formation. Our congregation has few consistent opportunities for adult formation beyond weekly worship. Discussion groups and Bible studies pop up now and then. Just this year we had our first Lenten spiritual retreat. I lead new member classes and baptism preparation classes as the needs arise. It’s not that we do nothing. It’s just that what we do is pretty spotty and inconsistent.

We are not a program-sized church.  It’s understandable that we do not have a developed program of spiritual formation with organized small groups and multiple class offerings every week. But it seems to me that even a small church can—and should—have a coherent method of spiritual formation.

So that’s what I’ve been thinking about. How can our small church best nurture adult faith? What core information do maturing Christians need to learn? What key spiritual experiences will most nurture growing faith?

In my idealistic bubble where the church has unlimited resources and the church people have nothing to do but church stuff, spiritual formation opportunities would consist of a solid small group ministry and a formation/education program roughly modelled on the Servant Leadership School in Washington, D.C.

Of course, in reality I live with you in the real world. I am a solo, part-time pastor. Most people who participate in the congregation I lead have jobs and family obligations. Plus they insist on sleeping and eating on a regular basis. So new questions arise: How much time can I realistically give to coordinating small groups and leading classes and retreats? Who else in the church is gifted to help with adult spiritual formation? What classes would people actually attend? When is the best time to offer them?

And here’s where I put on my Super Pastor cape and reveal to you the perfect model for spiritual formation in a small church . . .

Or not. I’m pretty sure all churches, especially small ones, have to figure this out on their own. I will continue to read and pray and discern the next steps for our congregation.

In the meantime, I found some unexpected encouragement from a blog post I stumbled across: “Can Creative Writing be Taught?”. I clicked on the article because I was a creative writing major in college and I taught English at the college level for a few years. It’s an intriguing question. The blogger, Gillian Holding, is a visual artist, and considers the parallels between writing and art. I was surprised to realize that there is a parallel with spirituality as well.

There are certain technical aspects of writing, drawing, design, the spiritual life, that can be taught. Grammar and perspective and prayer forms. Then there is the stuff that can’t be taught. The most technically skilled painter is not necessarily the best artist. For writers and visual artists, that stuff that can’t be taught might come from what we would call “inspiration” or “genius”–what Holding calls a “mindset.” In the Christian life, that stuff that can’t be taught comes from the Holy Spirit.

Holding, himself an art teacher, says that while we may not be able to fully teach art or creative writing, we can “provide an environment in which [the mindset that leads to great art] can be facilitated and encouraged and nurtured.”

This is good for me, as a pastor, to keep in mind. I cannot teach the spiritual life—no matter how many classes I offer or small groups I facilitate. I can help our congregation be a place where people’s spiritual life is “facilitated and encouraged and nurtured.” A place where the work that the Holy Spirit is already doing within us and among us is recognized and celebrated.

So my reading and googling and praying continues.  But I’m no longer looking for the perfect spiritual formation program. I’m more interested in forming a spiritually nurturing space.

 

[Potter image from Life in the Trinity Ministry.]

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Inviting her Friends

This past Sunday during worship, a young mother stood up during announcement time. She said, “We came to church this morning with invitations to M’s birthday party. I told her to give them to her friends. I was thinking of the other kids, but she’s just been handing them out randomly to anyone. So if there are any parents of young children who did not get an invitation, just check with me after worship.”

I should make a confession: As pastor of a small congregation, there are times I flirt with the sin of envy. I am in danger of coveting clergy neighbors’ large worship attendance, their spacious church buildings, their established programs, and especially their staff.

The church I serve averages about fifty folks at Sunday worship. I am the only paid staff at the church—and I’m part time. We have just two Sunday School classes for all of our children and youth. Our building is too small to host ecumenical worship services. We have no standing choir. There are so many service projects that we don’t do. So many spiritual formation programs that we don’t have.

And then there’s a soon-to-be four-year-old flitting around the congregation handing out birthday party invitations. Her parents instructed her to give them to her friends. And so she did.

I know there are churches larger than ours with more organized, more comprehensive programs for children. I know there are congregations with so many people that the ones who don’t want to deal with kids can go weeks, even months, without having to talk to anyone under the age of thirty. There are even places where people get paid to work with the children and the parents can catch a break.

Sometimes it seems that those would be nice places to be a pastor . . . and a parent.

But I wonder. I wonder, if our church had three worship services and a Sunday School class just for preschoolers, would M have understood her mother’s instructions better? Would she have dutifully handed the invitations to the other three and four-year-olds, bypassing all the “old people” who weren’t parents or Sunday School teachers?

It would, of course, be lovely to have sophisticated children’s programming and a church where the children were friends with the adults. Maybe someday . . . somewhere . . .

For now, I am blessed to be in a small congregation where soon-to-be four-year-olds pass out party invitations with abandon. Thanks be to God.

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Including the Kids

I just read a very good post on the perils of “children’s time” over at Carolyn’s wonderful blog, “Worshiping with Children.”  Her post has inspired me to share a bit about how our church worked to include children in the Lent and Easter worship this year.

Our Lenten theme this year was “Make Space for God.”  We began Lent with our front worship table cluttered with stuff–cell phones, junk mail, bills, pens, coupons . . . Each week at the end of children’s time (sorry Carolyn, we do have children’s time) the kids were invited to each take one item and place it in our recycling bin.  By Palm Sunday the table was cleared off–we had made space for God.

Also, we had a family worship service for both Ash Wednesday and Good Friday. Our traditional services on these days are very somber and contemplative; the family services involved stations, hands-on activities, and story telling.  The children seemed to enjoy them, and I know the parents appreciated the opportunity family worship.

Towards the end of the Good Friday service, we draped a gray cloth across the front of our worship table, thus sealing the “tomb” with Jesus in it.  At the beginning of worship on Easter morning, the children were invited to come forward and remove the “stone.”  After they all looked into the empty tomb, they turned around and proclaimed to the congregation, “Christ is risen!”  Then, as the congregation sang the first hymn, the children removed the gray cloth and placed the Easter cloth on the table.  Then they brought in the cross, flowers, and communion elements and set them on the table as well.

The worship team and I have made good efforts to include children in worship during Lent and Easter this year.  I hope we continue to be mindful of the young ones among us.  And I would love to hear about how your church involves children in worship.

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Thoughts on Holy Saturday

by Tom Sieger Koder

I love to plan worship services. I love to arrange for the participants, select the hymns, write the prayers, choose the readings . . . I love every part. And I want it all to be perfect.

I had this problem even before I was a pastor. My wedding, for example. I didn’t spend much time on the dresses or flowers, but I wanted each word of the ceremony to be right. As my anxiety built in the days leading up to the wedding, my dad pulled me aside. “Joanna,” he said, “whatever happens, you and Ryan will be married when this wedding is over. And that’s what really matters.”

I suppose that it is generally a good thing for a pastor to care deeply about the content and structure of worship. But I will tell you that my worship-planning perfectionism has just about exhausted me this week. I preached on Tuesday at an ecumenical service—and was re-writing my “perfect” words until about an hour before worship. I led both family-friendly and contemplative worship services last night. These involved blocks, crackers, juice, clay, and candles—though not all at once. Then this morning I set up prayer stations around our church.

And, of course, the “big” worship service is yet to come. I know it’s not rationally or grammatically correct to say this, but I always want Easter Sunday worship to be even more perfect than all the other worship services. Yesterday I was thinking, “Wow, it’s a lot of stress, trying to lead people in a celebration of the resurrection.”

Then my “inner dad” pulled me aside. “Joanna,” he said, “whatever happens at your church, Jesus will be out of that tomb tomorrow morning. And that’s what really matters.”

Amen. And thanks be to God!

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The Week Ahead

Holy Week tends to be pretty hard on pastors–or at least on me.  There is, of course, the practical aspect of organizing and leading extra worship services. (Between today and next Sunday there are seven worship services in which I have a significant part.)  More worship services means more sermons to write, more music to choose, more people to coordinate, more liturgy to develop, and more time leading worship.

Really, though, I usually find that the hardest thing about Holy Week, for me, is the emotional disconnect.  I’m reading through and preaching on the road to the cross, and the cross event itself, all while planning for a glorious celebration on Easter morning.  “Were you there when they crucified my Lord?” runs around in my head all week with “Christ the Lord is Risen today!”  It’s exhausting.

And to be honest, I tend to resent the exhaustion.  I want to experience straight-forward terror and sorrow the way Jesus’ first followers must have.  Then, on Easter morning, I want undiluted joy.  I want to be able to participate fully in the story–not be half in, half out.

But I’m wondering this morning, as I prepare to dive into Holy Week, whether the emotional roller-coaster that lies ahead might not be akin to what those first followers experienced after all.  It would have been a crazy week for them. They were in Jerusalem for the Passover celebration, so their lives, for that week, would likely have centered around their religious community.

During that week, Jesus and his followers would have been thinking of the terrible suffering experienced by their ancestors who were enslaved in Egypt.  And they would also have been remembering God’s mighty acts of liberation as their people walked out of Egypt and through the Red Sea.

Jesus’ disciples would have experienced fear, sorrow, horror as the events of the week unfolded.  Yet I wonder if there was a lining of hope.  Did any of them remember that Jesus had said he would rise again?  Did some of them have glimpses of Easter in the midst of the Good Friday terror?

And on Easter, had the cloud of the previous week completely disappeared?  Surely Jesus’ followers still experienced some fear, some sorrow for what had been lost, as they met the resurrected Christ.

I think I’ve been operating under the myth that the story of this week follows some pure emotional narrative–and that is just not the case.  All of the emotions would have been mixed up together for the original disciples just as they are for me today.

So this year, may God grant me–may God grant us all–the grace to appreciate this Holy Week journey as it is given to us–one mixed up, exhausting day at a time.

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